"After The Last Midtown Show" The Academy Is...

Hi,

I feel sort of weird saying this but to explain why I'm going ot go in and change Bennett's name and stuff and a lot of stuff is because I feel like I am writing too much one on idea. So I'll come clean. I am obsessed. Beyond obsessed. A stronger word that means: to eat, sleep, drink, breathe and exist off of.

I started writing one afternoon to this new record that came out. It had themes of High School, break-ups and isolation. Which are themes in my writing too. So listening to the record Fast times at Barrington High by The Academy Is... I started writing. I concieved the idea of an emo kid. An outsider. A freak. The center of attention. Nameless he was sitting agaisnt the stage trying out for a school talent show. Told from the point of view of a nameless shy insecure girl. If you've read "The Last Place You Look" you know who these people are.

And somehow it got bigger and bigger. I concieved the idea of this boy who this nameless emo faggot started a band with. The nameless emo faggot was naturally inspired by William Beckett. And the boy he started a band with was a weird character. He really had no substance. So I added a girl. He was in love with this girl. And they were physical opposites and he was strogn enough to hold her together when she fell apart. Thus creating Rainie Joseph and Paul Spinella.

But coming up with this my obsession with The Acadmey Is... was only beginning. I reached boardie status at this point. Ironies started unwinding and it turned out the names all fell into place in a strange stalker-ish fashion. As well as some events. Though one song is directly paralell to what happens in the story off of Fast Times I've reached a point where if I take this any step further I'll have to shoot myself in the foot and remove the psines of this story. Maybe it's not so obvious. But to me it's deafening.

I just reread the ending of "The Last Place You Look" and I hope I don't do this story anything wrong by fixing the few glitches. My changes will be minimal and miniscual but it's all to make the story stand on it's own. But the roots are still in the same record. That branches of off my favorite band and my saviors. Who breathed life into me and made it so I could be here.

If you've never heard Fast Times at Barrington High you have to listen to "After the Last Midtown Show" and you'll understand why I made these characters. Why I started writing this summer when I loved this record even before I heard it.

Santi-
JaseyRay.

True Confessions: William Beckett saved my life.

"40 Steps" The Academy Is...

Hi,

So my rewrite is going pretty swell. I'm actually reading some really weird stuff right now and it's making it a little hard. i'm sort of blocked right now creatively. I can't do anything. I can't write or listen to any music or draw or play guitar.

I'm hoping I'll get over this soon. I'm going to download a couple music videos and stuff. Music usually sparks my creative side. So hopefully I'll be golden for now.

I've been doing a lot of research online about getting a book published. And I'm not sure what I plan on doing. It's stupid to say that I'm trying ot make decisions but I know sort of what to do and how I plan to go about this. Rereading my past two stories. There's a lot to do in the editing sense of things. I'm going to change Bennett William's last name and I'm going to maybe change the name of the town. And the sense of everything.

But I think it's sort of difficult because I have everything sort of written in stone now. It's like changing your own name for me. But I hope I can find something that's better than before. I might have to even change the name of the town. But I really can't bring myself to. Kerrington is basically a staple. And I hate having to change so much.

My image of Paul took a dramatic make-over if you didn't realize. The way he looks changed significantly in my mind and gettign into writing in his point of view was really enlightening. But I find myself obsessivly reading "The Last Place You Look" and finding it ot be actually one of my best written pieces ever.

I also apologize about "Leaving Through the Window" because it's sort of hard writing that in the heat of a rewrite and also a lot of stuff in my life like my paintings I started doing and my budding t-shirt company. I feel like I need to watch a Lifetime movie or something badly. Or a couple episodes of this Webisode from my favorite band. I need inspiration fast.

I was actually really inspired today by this story I came up with. God, I hate when this happens in them iddle of everything. But as you can see my work is a little "alternative" if so to speak. A little darker than Sarah Dessen and I have been finding myself writing for my story "The Riot" in my notes a lot. So I don't know. Nobody seemed interested in that story but I see that everyone needs to move on from their high points. And "Perfect Kisses Lead to One night Stands" is looking pretty sad right now in comparison to "The Last Place You Look"

It's ironic actually because I tried so hard to get "Last Place" up to the same level as "Perfect Kisses" when now I'm shooting myslef in the foot with this rewrite. And It's so easy to write thier first date but I find myself rushing through it. I'll have a few updates this week hopefully.

Over and out-
JaseyRay

"Hair" The Early November

Hi,

So this is a fun little thing. Maybe you can get to know me more and everything. But I'll try and keep you updated on my work any everythign too and this is easier so if I'm slow on something you can check and see what's up.

What I want to do is possibly add some fun little things I've found rereading my notes- like the first notes fpr "Last Place You Look" or why some things happened and what's inspiring me. And also, I don't know how much I can get into this, but I'm tihnking about getting one of these stories published. So far, with my rewrite showcasing my personal best, I'm looking into trying to get "Perfect Kisses Lead to One Night Stands" published first. I'm not even done with the rewrite, but who knows.

"The Universe tends to unfold as it should." - adam t. siska.

I hope you guys read this. Because I love all you've given to me. And all you've done to me by reviewing or reading or just checking in to see what's up or reading my stories and giving them a chance. You make me feel like I can do anything.

And I've never been this happy or confident about anything, and I'm buying a webcam soon so maybe some video updates maybe if this blog thing works out.

But thank you if you're reading this. You are making me a better person everyday.

-JaseyRay.