"Shorty" The Get Up Kids

Hi

So I thought this was interesting. Reading this once I finished "The Last Place You Look" and seeing how much has changed. I thought Bennett Williams' name was Adam when I staretd writing this story in my notes. Turns out in my first notes of this story, his name was Bennett.

"He had hair longer than a lot of girls at this school. He was dressed normally like himself. Tight jeans and a shirt hugging his long skinny body. But he jsut sat agaisnt the stage next to his guitar case. Talking to Jill, a girl in my math class.

With Dave backstage I sat alone closeby them. Not close enough to hear them but close. Jill got up saying goodbye. And she walked away.

I watched him. He sat back sipping a bottle of ater. He leaned his head back against the stage for a minute. And I looked away my attention drawn to a freshman belting out some showtune.

When I looked back at him. His eres were on me. We made eye contact for a long time. I tried not to blink. I felt weird maybe he wasn't looking at me. So I blinked.

He smiled. And it changed his entire face. He had been looking at me. And I smiled back at him. Before looking back at the stage.

Dave's band played next. They were a shoo-in. And I looked at him. Dave as he sand. He'd look at me occasionally smile and wink. But I watched Bennett. He actually watched Dave's band. And I knew he knew they were good. Everyone did.

The band was packing up and Dave jumped down from the stage and came over to me. I kissed him. Said how good he was. And meant it.

He sat next to me. And kissed my cheek. Saying how pretty I looked. Then we both looked up.

Bennett was sitting on a stool with his guitar. "This guy," Dave pointed. "Is all over myspace. He's legitimate. But too emo, way too emo."

I nodded as Bennett started playing. Some simple quiet chords. Then Dave got up to get a drink from a vending machine. But I watched him so, so carefully. He looked up bringing his mouth to the microphone. His eyes fell on me.

And he started singing.

And he was amazing.

* * *

The next talent show rehearsal I didn't see Bennett and I was nervous. He didn't get in. But I saw him. His hair was shorter. I stared almost. He looked very good looking.

Dave was talking to him. I went over to them trying not to be weird. Dave introduced me as I walked up. "Hi," I said.

"Hey," He said. He smiled at me. "You're in my history class, right?"

I nodded. "Yeah," I said.

Then Dave went back to talking about music with him."

I wrote this during my first sitting of Fast Times at Barrington High. I forget which song but I think it was before "After The Last Midtown Show"- which was the song I anticipated more than anything.

When that happened I sort of took the skeleton of that and applied it to this story. And if you are unfamiliar with the band The Academy Is... I can't stress enough how incredible they are and how they've impacted my life, my art, and my writing.

And I'll be working on changing the characters around so it isn't some sick creepy FanFiction. Because I think I drew too much out of their music and images associated with the band. I jsut hope I don't ruin it.

But we need to fix the things we need to fix. It won't be a complete rewrite. Maybe, but I'm not sure I want to start thinking about that.

Edit: I'm officially ten years younger than William Beckett today. Happy Birthday Billvy :]

Byesies-
JaseyRay.

"The Author" The Academy [Is...]

Hi

Yesterday I think I ended my creative block. My freehand came out incredible. And it's on of the best drawings I've ever done. It's of Oli Sykes of this band Bring Me The Horizon. They were on the cover of my Bible- AKA Alternative Press Magazine, and I had to draw this picture. It was so freaking amazing looking.

And I think I have new momentum behind "Perfect Kisses Lead to One Night Stands"

But last night my update was kind of late. I spent all night watching MTV with my dad talking about music, The Beatles, Elvis Costello, Jenny Lewis, Led Zeppelin, and Kid Rock. And you may think Kid Rock is a tool, he can sure rock a live show, and being best friends with a 3'9" midget earns this dude some cool points on my books. I've recently combined three out in the air ideas of mine and may be putting them together soon into a nother story. You guys must think I'm insane coming up with stories. 50% of them are forgotten. Although sometimes I keep writign them and by luck they become something huge.

But anyway. I hope everyone has a good week. I'm going ot hop-to-it on a poetry project and try and find a song that relates to the theme "Isolation" which is the main theme of all the poetry I have found yet.

Sometimes I pull unintentional emo moves. Everyone's going to have themes like love, friendship, puppies, unicorns... and I'll remain the deep English Freak that says metaphoric crap all the time and has the theme Isolation.

I'll have an update today... possibly? Don't hold me to anything. Poetry to me is like candy. I'll post some of the stuff I used to write when I gave up on writing what I do now and started writing poetry.

Gah-oo-dah-by

-Jasey Ray.

"David Visits The Dentist"

Hi



This is amazing. So cute. Little kids crack me up sometimes.

-JaseyRay

"Tokyo Bay" The Academy Is...

Hi

I've been really blocked lately. My family doesn't get it so they are pushing me to work on these shirts I need to give this girl. And then my mom is trying to push me out of the house. Which stresses me and blocks me even more. And I can barely sleep normally. My sleeping pattern's all fucked up. And I can't sleep when I want to and wake up to the most random things. And I'll wake up and try to do something productive. I can't write anything. and music's not doing it for me lately.

So I am starting up drawign again for me. I'll post this piece I'm working on. I started last night and I got the closure I wanted for one of the most recent things stressing me. But I had a weird dream abotu sugar water and Circa Survive. But Anthony Green only inspires "The Riot" for me. And "Perfect Kisses Lead To One Night Stands" is really difficult. I'll have a new update tonight... maybe... maybe not.

But I've been upt ot my old tricks again downloading a ton of music crap. And updating my iPod. Playlists. And doing mindless logical stuff. In Math I just sit there and my mind wanders off into my pieces and stories. But it's funny. I should do math problems or something when I'm blocked liek this.

I think all this stress is just building up. It's awful. I haven't had a Listening Session or listened to anything that inspired me for "Perfect Kisses" in a while. I don't think any record inspired me for them actually. I don't own Siamese Dream or (What's The Story) Morning Glory. Nor have I listened to them much other than a couple songs. And other than that all my other records that have any force to inspire me are already inspiring me to write other stories.

It's awful and confusing. So I'm done with excuses. I'll buckle down and finish whatever else I need to.

Peace Out Cub Scout-
JaseyRay

"Lazy Eye" Silversun Pickups

Hi

Rereading. Rereading. Rereading. "Last Place You Look" is a secret obsession of mine. I love reading it. It's like I got a book out from the library and I can't stop reading it. But my obsession with the Academy Is... has thickened even more (is that possible? somehow...) and I'm going to change a few names around it's decided but I'll keep Bennett Williams I think.

They can't sue me I guess. And that name is so natural for me now. It's impossible for him to be under any other name.

I'm relying on you guys to bring your A-game when it comes to feedback. My sister isn't into reading stuff on the computer so please give me all your feedback. I have thick skin and I love to hear you guys' opinions.

Sorry "Perfect Kisses" Rewrite is so slow. It's harder and slower and I'm trying ot find other ways around this. But it's so hard. School. Cat-sitting. Family. Now sports (uber-UGH!). But it'll go by faster. I'll let a few chapters pool up before I post again.

Then it'll feel like I did more for you :P

It's my sister's birthday so I filled a whol hallmark card with rambles and stuff. Sisterly love and mentioning of dance parties and Double Duels. It's pretty intense. She's hitting a huge checkmark in her life and I'm happy for her. She's a pretty sick kid.

...if only she'd read my work...

Winter's Passing-
JaseyRay.

"Baby, you won't last a minute on the Creek" Chidos

Hi,

I've been reading up on published author's books so I'm thinking of purchasing a book and getting down to business. But I am trying to decide how to go about this. find an agent. Or go without one. They cost money so I might try to get a smaller publishing company. But really I have no idea. There's this book I'm thinking of getting.

But I'm definatly publishing one of my Kerrington pieces if I do end up gettign anything out there. It's just the decision between which. Which I might wait to finish both manuscripts. So far I'm loving "The Last Place You Look" but "Perfect Kisses Lead To One Night Stands" is still a little favorite of mine. I think I despise the one I'm writing most. Because that's all that happens. I hated "Perfect Kisses" when I was writign it thorugh the first time and then I hated "Last Place" when I was writing it. It's confusing.

My other stories I'm coming up with are a little more different. A little more alternative and not so much Sarah Dessen like I mentioned. So excited though. Coming up with notes right now. And it's going to be painful to write and my other story- which is more Stephen Chbosky and remaining unfinished on my FanFiction- "The Riot" is also something I want to work on.

I know everyone wants to be a writer. They all want to be the big bestselling authors who write and attract talk shows and attention and readers like teenage girls to Robert Patterson (is that his name?). I want that too. But I jsut want to get a book out there. Maybe make no money at all but I'm so young and I jsut want to have something I can hold and have a lot of people reading.

I'm not trying to be the next Sarah Dessen and I'm not even cut out for that. I just want to make a name for myself. I want to be someone before I die. And if I should die before I wake from this dream, I know at least I tried.

Goodnight-
JaseyRay

Theme Music: "The Great Escape" Boys Like Girls - Story: Song that saved my life and wrote love on my arms. Always wanted to write to this song. But can never bring myself to.

"Babygirl" Anthony Green

Hi

My writer's block is gone. And I've been working on a multi-POV sequel to "The Last Place You Look" and "Perfect Kisses Lead to One Night Stands" but it's only present in my notes and my mind and I'm not sure if I'll get ot writing it seriously. I want to work on "Leaving Through The Window" and this more alternative piece that still rmeains in the works and untitled.

My rewrite is going peachy. I like adding in more things. And little bits and pieces I forgot or thought of writing later on. A few family things. So this isn't all about the Rainie and Paul story. Even though that's the main point. But there's more cheek-pinching and gut-punching family moments in store. Not that you don't know very well how most of them will play out- those who have read the original. And this won't be so drastic. But I'm going to add a little more in also of the Spinella family. I'm also surprised that nobody asked about them.

Also in "The Last Place You Look" how could you not demand what the note in the envelope in the box said? Come on guys. I rely on you for feedback. I love you all. I just I'm a little bit shocked and amazed only I picked up on that. I honestly forgot and I hope you all noticed this if you reread a few things. I left myself wondering. What about you?

So I added a little epilogue. And I hope you like it.

I'll get to work right now. I'm listening to Anthony Green and probably unconciously starting another storyline in my head. Jesus. I have so much to write. A lot I hope you like. My next piece may not fit under the Sarah Dessen catagories. It's more... out there in a sense. It's still cheesy and happy. Just a little more "The Riot" than "Dear Hannah Jane" you dig? But I love having so much in store for you.

I'm coming more and more into my own. Personality-wise I "identify" a lot. I pick up on qualities in other people and mimick them. And I mix them all together into myself. Which means I'm like a million people in one. And my writing must be the same way. Whenever you take in something, it influences you no matter what. You may not even realize it but it does.

Peace out-
JaseyRay.